Poetry: Page One

You stand on Page One

Broken

But fighting

Bleeding

But standing

Always

Surviving

 

You are not the Warrior

The Queen

The Wizard or the Mage

Of the last pages of my favorite novels

 

But they flicker inside of you

Embers of future flames

 

You are healing

Cracks closing

Blood clotting

Wounds scarring

Into memories

 

There is a word for taking something broken

And putting it back together with gold between the cracks

 

Don’t sell yourself short with

The dollar store super glue that

That attendant tried to sell you

Don’t buy it

 

Your story is just beginning

But I believe I know how it ends

Poetry: You Came Back

You came back

Just long enough

To freshen the memories and

Unclog the tear ducts

 

You tracked in dirt

From memory lane

Leaving me

To clean up the mess

 

Thanks, a lot.

At least

I have something to write about

Again

Poetry: Come Back

You were intriguing

You were different

You smiled without

Smirking

Talked without

Boasting

Laughed without

Mocking

You were quiet

But confident

 

And I knew that it could

That it would

Fall apart—

In some way,

This was inevitable—

 

But I thought you’d come back

With arrogant shoulders

Or snarky lips

Or a laugh that reeked

With the stench of pride

 

I never imagined

That you’d come back

And still be so far away

 

It never occurred to me

That you could come back

Empty.

Poetry: Stolen Fire

I used to have a raging fire—

Crackling, dancing, bursting, writhing

Wouldn’t sit still, wouldn’t calm down

It devoured and it lived

 

But I ran out of logs

But at least I still had kindling—

But I ran out of that as well

But at least I still had embers—

To hold back the looming darkness

But the wind carried each off

One by one…

Silent theif.

 

Where did that spark go?

I wonder

Fumbling in the dark

Who stole my matches?

Do they want me to freeze tonight?

When did the night

Grow so dark

And cold?

How will I get my fire back

When it never occurred to me to wonder

How the first one started?

 

How did I never notice

The importance of my fire

To beat back the night inside of me?

Poetry: Out of Nowhere

It came out of nowhere

They say

But they are the ones who taught us to be silent

 

It came out of nowhere

They say

Because we followed instructions

Until we couldn’t—

Until the dam broke

And all we could do was scream

 

It came out of nowhere

They yell

As if not seeing a problem

Means it doesn’t exist

 

It came out of nowhere

They shout

As if the shame and silence they have forced upon us

Discredits us, instead of them

 

It came out of nowhere

They scream

Louder than our own shouts

Because their voices are not hoarse

From disuse and self-exile

 

Yes,

It came out of nowhere

But it was never nothing.

Poetry: Racing to Our Futures

It’s back

The racing

The running

The stumbling

The can I do this

The will I make it

The one more mile

Counting down the days

Until a break

 

Ah.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

Calm?

Good…because

Ready

Set

Go

Again

 

Faster now

More obstacles to dodge

(Will you make it?)

How fast are your reflexes?

How strong are your muscles?

Can you do this?

Push yourself harder

Less sleep

More running

I. Can. Do. This.

(Where am I even going?)

 

All the while

Screamed at by sideline coaches

And jeered at by crowds

Telling you Run Faster

Dig Deeper

(Don’t they see there’s nothing left?)

 

And runners sprint past you

While others collapse

Suddenly still in a flood of movement

The winners and the losers

In front and behind

 

And there’s nothing left to do

But keep running

Because this is a race

Even if you didn’t know that

When you started

Weekend Words #11

weekend words picWeekend Words showcases inspiring quotes from books, about writing, and about life. This feature will happen every weekend, either on Saturday or Sunday, depending on my schedule.  Everyone should feel free to take part–it would honestly make my day! Complete instructions can be found on the feature’s page. 

I’m back! Just like in my 2016 goals post, I’m starting Weekend Words again! I hope you like these quotes (maybe even decide to join in on the feature…? :)) and that you’re having a great weekend!

1. A Powerful Quote From a Recent Read

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“Ski. Sled. Play basketball. Jog. Run. Run. Run. Run home. Run home and enjoy. Enjoy. Take these verbs and enjoy them..” — Nez Vizzini, It’s Kind of a Funny Story

IKOAFS is a book that’s been on my mind a lot this week, ever since I finished it. This quote, some of the last words of the book, inspire me to live my life, not just survive it.

2. A Quote that Inspired or Influenced Me This Week

new years resolution

“Let our New Year’s Resolution be this: We will be there for one another as fellow members of humanity, in the finest sense of the word.” — Goran Persson

Since it’s the first week of the New Year, I thought that a quote dealing with New Years Resolutions would be apropos. I love the solemn note of this quote, and the fact that it is definitely achievable for everyone this year.

3. Something I’ve Been Wanting to Say

What with school starting up again, I’ve been hit with a feeling like the new year changed nothing, making me forget all the good times I had over the holidays—and I wouldn’t be surprised if that was happening to anyone else. I hope everyone has a great new year, and that we’re able to remember the little things that make us happy, even if the big things in life don’t always. 


I hope you’re all having a great weekend! What quotes have inspired you recently?

Poetry: Do Other People

Do other people

Not understand

The pain they can inflict with a simple sentence—

Maybe just a few words strung together

Nonchalantly

Not hesitantly

No evil or cruel intent

Just good ol’ fashion cluelessness

To human nature

 

Do other people

Not carry these sentences with them?

Like twisted trinkets

Like demented luggage

Like echoes as they try to fall asleep?

 

Do other people

Not realize

The effect that words can have?

Do other people

Not wake up in predawn darkness

Haunted by slipups and embarrassments and even things that weren’t even

That bad

To start with?

 

I guess they must not

Or they would choose their words better.

Guest of the Month: Beyond the Blog

I am super excited to introduce a new series of posts that you guys will see on my blog each month: Guest of the Month Club, hosted by Emily @ Emily Reads Everything! This is a great program that connects different bloggers each month to guest post on each other’s blogs. You can find more details and sign up here.
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This month I’m paired up with Michael @ Your Own Pay. He’s a really inspiring guy, and you should check out his blog and podcasts!

This month’s topic is Beyond the Blog. Here is Michael’s post discussing what his life looks like when he isn’t blogging.

You can see my post—a semi-rambling depiction of my clueless high school existence—on his blog here.


“The alarm goes off promptly at 6:30 AM, isn’t it interesting how that thing’s never late! I drowsily feel for my phone, and when I find it I hit one of the volume keys to silence it and give me another 10 minutes of blissful sleep. I know however that I won’t take advantage of those 10 minutes; I need to get up and get my brother ready for school. So I disconnect my phone from its charger and tap the lock button to display the lock screen. Flicking through I noticed that one of my clients paid me via PayPal, that’s always nice; 3 new followers on Twitter, and my wife commented on last night’s Facebook status I posted. After I’ve reviewed all of the notifications on the lock screen, I quickly brush my thumb against the thumbprint raider at the bottom of my phone to unlock it and roll out of bed.

Drowsily I stumble into the kitchen and opened the cupboard above the coffee maker. Feeling around I find that the coffee can is about in the same spot I remember it last being. So I take it out and place it on the counter. Then I recall that yesterday I did not empty the coffee filter in the K cup machine. So I deposit the already used grounds into the garbage, and fill up the filter with fresh grounds. Reaching over, I grab my coffee cup off the counter where I left it last night, put it under the receiver for the brood coffee, and fill up the back of the K cup machine. As I smell my poison brewing, I turn to the cereal sitting next to the microwave and grab a bowl out of the cupboard. Pouring some cereal into the bowl, I remember that yesterday my brother asked if he could have bananas with the cereal in the morning. Grabbing a banana out of the fruit bowl on the counter, I peal it and break it up into small chunks mixing it in with the cereal. Adding some milk I place the bowl on the table and call out, “Benjamin!”

Benjamin comes into the kitchen and asks, “Can I turn the light on?”

Chuckling to myself as I walk over to the coffee machine to grab my cup I say, “Of course you can”!

I pull my phone out and ask my personal assistant Siri what’s on my calendar for today, and while he is reading that information to me I will introduce myself and thank Jocelyn for letting me post on her blog. This is a guest posting inspired by Emily and her Guest of the Month blog group. I’m very excited to be part of this like-minded group of bloggers so I can share what it’s like when I’m not blogging, and connect with those who truly want to learn more about the environment of bloggers.

So it looks like I have a conference call at 8 AM, then an online seminar I’m attending related to acquiring new followers on Twitter at 10:15 AM. I’ve also got a doctors appointment this afternoon, and it sounds like I’ve even got a paid coaching call at 2 PM. Finishing up listening to my calendar events, I check the reminders I have as well thanks to my amazing personal assistant. Siri lets me know that I have set a reminder to contact a blind advertising site to market my WordPress training from a blindness point of view. In addition, I’ve also got a reminder set that Benjamin needs to have his shots done for school by the end of the month so I need to set an appointment for that to be done. It sounds like I’ve got a busy day, and then I remembered that it’s Tuesday so I need to speak with the team about the marketing objectives I gave them last week to see where they are with them.

Benjamin has finished his cereal and bananas now, so after prompting him to brush his teeth and get dressed so we can catch the bus I begin pondering the idea I want to Podcast about today. It’s my objective to release one podcast per day through the end of the year, and sometimes coming up with podcast topics can be a little bit difficult especially since I’m pretty sure I’ve covered quite a bit of stuff already. As  Benjamin finishes up brushing his teeth, andgetting his clothes on we walk out the door at 7:20 in the morning. After Benjamin gets on the bus, I start my day when it comes to not blogging.

This is just a quick glimpse into the morning of a stay-at-home digital marketer who is completely blind. I like to not let my blindness hold me back, and am always encouraged to step out of my comfort zone and connect with people who might not understand that it’s possible for someone even with a “disability” to be able to do anything he puts his mind to. Platforms such as Twitter, Facebook, Blab, Periscope, YouTube, and more have made it so much easier for me to connect with other like-minded individuals off of my blog, and bring them back to my blog to share the content I’ve got with them.

When I’m not blogging I’m connecting with people on other social media sites and doing stuff around the house while my more than amazing wife is working! I won’t admit it publicly to my wife, but I also enjoy spending some time with our two cats and just hanging out. If I’m not doing work related stuff, I’m typically reading some sort of marketing or personal development book to help better myself personally and the businesses I work with. (Thanks Audible and Youtube!)

What about you? What does your day look like when you’re not on the Internet? Or, maybe you are on the Internet all day, what types of things do you enjoy doing?

Leave me a comment and I look forward to connecting with you. Once again Jocelyn, thanks a lot for allowing me to share my message with your readers!


Thank you, Michael, for sharing this amazing guest post! And thank you Emily for making this possible!

You guys can listen to his podcasts and get to know him at his blog or on Twitter @PayOwn.

Weekend Words #10

weekend words picWeekend Words showcases inspiring quotes from books, about writing, and about life. This feature will happen every weekend, either on Saturday or Sunday, depending on my schedule. While this is a reading/writing centric blog, this feature doesn’t have to be focused on those areas–it is intentionally open-ended to give bloggers a chance to say what’s on their mind.

Everyone should feel free to take part–it would honestly make my day! Complete instructions can be found on the feature’s page. 

1. A Powerful Quote From a Recent Read

quote full of signs

“Maybe the world isn’t  full of signs so much as it’s full of people trying to use whatever evidence they can find to convince themselves of what they hope to be true.” — Jennifer E. Smith, Hello, Goodbye, and Everything in Between

2. A Quote that Inspired or Influenced Me This Week

quote leave yourself behind

“Be there for others, but never leave yourself behind.” — Dodinsky

3. Something I’ve Been Wanting to Say

I kind of already said this here, but Thanksgiving is simultaneously screwed up and really important. We should all try to be thankful for little things more often in our lives, but we should also take some time out of our busy lives to educate ourselves about the darker parts of America’s history.


I hope you’re all having a great weekend! What quotes have inspired you recently?